With the quote from Xan Oku as the title, I guess it’s only appropriate to name the culprit of my absence lately. I do love to write a lot and I did keep writing this passing week, it was just that it wasn’t to this blog but to someone. You know that once in a blue moon, you would encounter someone that you would connect on a deeper level almost instantly. I’ve met people I’ve clicked with and many of them had blossomed into a life-long friendship. But never have I met anyone who is so similar to myself in all those ways that matter, that it was almost like looking in the mirror. And I met that someone last Saturday at a munch, he was there for the first time. In just one short week of knowing him, he had made me reflect and learn so much about myself and given me so much inspiration. It’s like all of the things I’ve learned so far after being completely single and in celibacy for little over a year that had been all mashed up together incoherently in my head and upon meeting him, so much of it became clear as daylight. So I guess I owe him this one post, and starting next week I will go ahead and explore all of the things I’ve learned.
I know I’ve been a bad bad blogger this week. I had so many plans and an especially exciting post for Kinky Wednesday too, about my evolving sexuality and how after three years, I still haven’t figured everything out what I am. At the last munch last Saturday, there was this new-to-the-scene guy who makes me question my whole kinky existence. XD And definitely about just how important it is exactly to actually stay celibate till the end of the year, like I’ve planned. Damn it all. XD Oh well, I’m sure I’ll be more coherent next week and then I will tell you guys everything and more. 😛 My mood through the week has been pretty fucking excitingly fluctuating, so since I like to choose a song that reflects my mood for Jukebox Friday, it was pretty challenging to settle on which one. The week started more or less like the K-pop song ‘Can’t Breathe’ by miss A (don’t forget to put on subtitles). Then it escalated quickly to ‘Closer’ by NiN, cos ‘I want to fuck you like an animal’ was pretty accurate. XD Fortunately, it mellowed out a bit like a fine wine once you let it breathe a bit, I settled on a more subtle song, smoother but still wildly sexual. What is it with Toye Sivan and his songs. Oh well. Hope you enjoy and have a great weekend! I know I will. 😉
No guys, still not over Shawn Mendes. 😀 But I wanted to switch it up a bit. Instead of putting a Mendes song again here, I’m just gonna put one of his favorite songs. 😀 I’ve recently seen him talk about how obsessed he is about this song. And the craziest thing was, I was pretty obsessed with this song too few years ago too. I even bought the album. I’m actually a little surprised that I hadn’t put this on Jukebox Friday yet. Well, here it is. I love love love the lyrics, it’s really my kind of love anthem. 😛 Hope you have a great weekend!
My favorite parts of the lyrics:
“But I don’t want “good” and I don’t want “good enough”
I want “can’t sleep, can’t breathe without your love”
“The world makes all kinds of rules for love
I say you gotta let it do what it does”
“There’s no such thing as wild enough,
And maybe we just think too much
Who needs to play it safe in love?”