Jukebox Friday

Shallow – Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper

I was supposed to put this song last week but then got a little too excited about the Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse winning the Golden Globe. Lady Gaga’s song from the movie “A Star Is Born” is certainly going to sweep all of the awards this year as the Best Song, for that I’ve no doubt whatsoever. It is a very beautiful song, I also love the lyrics and performance. Everytime I hear the ascension to the chorus, God it always gives me goosebumps. Lady Gaga is such a phenomenal singer. Hope you enjoy the song and have a great weekend! I know I will! 😉

My favorite parts of the lyrics:
“I’m falling. In all the good times I find myself longin’ for change. And in the bad times I fear myself.”
“I’m off the deep end, watch as I dive in. I’ll never meet the ground. Crash through the surface, where they can’t hurt us. We’re far from the shallow now.”

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Book Reviews · Nerdy Basement

Kiss and Kill (#8 Hot Blood Series) – Book review, part 1/2

353464Here is book eight of the Hot Blood series, a little reading project to go through a 13-book series of erotic horror short stories. Here are links to my previous reviews:

Reviews for book 1-4

Book 5, part 1 and part 2

Book 6, part 1 and part 2

Book 7, part 1 and part 2

Reviews for book 8 will be divided into two parts. I will briefly review every short story, and also include the length, the level of the sex of each story and then a rating for the story. At the end of part 2, there will be a summary of the whole book. Let’s continue with part 1 for book 8 – Kiss and Kill.

“Sixteen erotic horror stories include the tales of fantasy-fulfilling cheerleaders, a modern den of sin and its centuries-old acts of debauchery, and a competition over sexual conquest by two wives.” – Goodreads

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Emo Attic

Courtship Chronicles, part 1 – The Anatomy of a Crush

Courtship Chronicles! The name I decided for the series about me navigating the dating scene as a 30-something poly kinky girl. In addition to keeping my eyes open in kinky gatherings and parties, my main tool is Tinder. I’ve heard that Tinder in different countries is slightly different in its functionality, like for example it’s mainly for hookups. In a tiny country like Finland, it’s pretty much one of the major dating app that serves all kinds of purposes. And since I’m not being very specific what I’m looking for, it serves me well enough.

The dating part hit the ground running starting last week. I matched with a fellow kinkster on Tinder and went to have a drink with him last week. He was nice and we had fun chatting but I’m not sure we had that much chemistry. Plus he smokes, and I’m not that into it. But then I started chatting with this other guy on Tinder from Friday. He is 28-year-old. I know, guess I’m starting my cougar business early. XD I’m actually meeting him for the first time for a drink today, in a couple of hours. The reason I wanted to write this now is cos I want to capture this moment when I’m crushing hard on someone, before the tension dissolve with meeting face to face.

I have crushes on people all the time, but most of the time it’s ‘hey I like you’ and mostly it’s that they are good-looking in my eyes and their personality is nothing too turn-off-y. But then there are giant crushes. I don’t get them often, especially for someone I haven’t met yet. And I thought it would be interesting at least for myself to try and identify the reasons what make me crush hard on someone whom I haven’t even met yet.

I have a really multi-layered sense of humor. I love making people around me laugh so I adapt and change my humor to what I’m sure they can get. Cos laughing together creates a sense of inclusivity and it’s a bonding experience. I have a quick wit, even if I do say so myself, so situational humor is pretty much my jam most of the time. My humor is also very sarcastic and from time to time extremely dark so I tend to get a feel of the crowd first and judge what they can take. In other words, I have to censor myself when it comes to my humor most of the time. I count it as a win when people get my jokes enough to laugh. It’s a completely different experience when someone manages to match my sarcasm with more sarcasm. I also use a lot of nerdie and pop-cultury references. Basically, you gotta be Deadpool to get all of my stuff. XD I can probably count with one hand how many of my friends can do it, so when I find someone that matches me humor-wise, I grab onto them hard. 😛

Just like humor, I don’t find people to match my nerdiness, like watch and read and play the same stuff. I just like nerds in general but I do enjoy a nerd especially much when they like the same things as me.

It’s been a long time that I giggled this much while texting with someone, and also laughing out loud. It’s actually very nice to be one laughing and not only the one making others laugh. 🙂 I forgot how fun it can be for someone to put effort into making me laugh.

Open for communication
This is one of the most important aspects that I appreciate in any types of relationship, and I truly appreciate it when the other person is open to communicate even the not-so-pleasant stuff without me having to try to make them open up to me. Makes everything easier.

I’m actually pretty surprised at this, how much I seem to like people who hustle. I don’t care that much about whether someone is career-oriented or ambitious, as long as they work hard, they earn my respect.


There they are. 🙂 Of course, I’m not a saint here. In fact, so many of my friends call me shallow. I do have to first and foremost find their appearance attractive. Sixpacks and blue eyes always help. But it’s usually the fact that they speak fluent sarcasm and those other points mentioned above that make me form a giant crush on someone. Sorry if you came here for something kinky. 😀 I will try to come up with something for next week. Wish me luck for tonight’s date! I will keep you posted. 😛 Until then, stay kinky! 😉

Healthy Corner

Ten Things I’ve Learned About Fitness

So here we are, ten valuable lessons I’ve learned throughout the years from very inactive to slightly obese to being incredibly stubborn about the ways to get fit. I know a lot, cos I read and watch a lot about things surrounding these subjects. I know the science behind it, but when it comes to implementing it in real life, I just refuse to believe that fitness can actually be very simple. Here are ten things I’ve learned about fitness. I deliberately don’t like using the word ‘weight-loss’, because at least for me, that’s not the point. As soon as my focus shifted from desperately trying to lose weight into getting fit and strong, it all just started to make much more sense to me, and weight-loss is just a happy side-effect. It took me years to accept all of these but I finally feel like I’m in a good place when it comes to my body and going towards an even better place.

1. Diets don’t work (duh)

Surprise! When I say I’ve tried them all, I really have tried them all. I will go through all of the major popular diets that I’ve tried and failed next week. I did them so you don’t need to. It’s really very easy math – short-term efforts will only produce short-term results, simple as that.

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Healthy Corner

What pretty hands you have

“What pretty hands you have.” 

I hear that phrase a lot ever since I was little. I mean, I’m a short girl (160cm, 5’3′), so both my feet and hands are tiny. My fingers are long and slender but not bony. All my mom’s female friends, the aunties, would always grab my hands and tell me how they look like they belonged to a princess and other such equally cheesy stuff. I would always then look at them myself, frowning. Somehow, having the hands of a princess rubbed me the wrong way. Somehow, it made me feel like I have the hands of someone weak, someone who needs protecting.

I don’t know whether I’ve resented my own hands for that reason or not but I’ve been abusing them for a long time now. I crack my fingers a lot. I never do get my nails done, I keep them very short cos I used to play a lot of video games and I also type a lot so long nails get in the way. I also lift weights a lot so there are spots of hardened skin on my palm. And once I get my punching bag back up at home, my knuckles would get rougher too cos I don’t like wearing thick boxing gloves.

I’ve actually forgotten how ‘admired’ my hands were until my childhood friend reminded me recently. Her mom was one of those aunties who always admired my tiny hands and my friend was envious of them, or that’s what she told me. And she was almost shocked when I showed her the hard skin and told her about the soon-to-be-fucked knuckles, she couldn’t understand why I’m almost going out of my way to fuck up my hands. And my response to her was, what are pretty hands good for if they can’t do anything. I can’t change how my fingers look like, but I can make my grip stronger. I can’t grow my hands, but I can make them harder and stronger. My hands don’t look like the hands of a princess anymore. But now when I look at them, I’m not frowning. Instead, I’m full of pride. Because they look tiny but strong.


This was one of those silly little stories for the theme of fitness. Hope you enjoyed. 🙂

Movie Reviews · Nerdy Basement

Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse – Movie Review

“Teen Miles Morales becomes Spider-Man of his reality, crossing his path with five counterparts from other dimensions to stop a threat for all realities.”

I’ve confessed my dedication and love for Spider-Man on multiple occasion, most recently via “Spider-Man: Homecoming” movie review I wrote. Sam Raimi’s Spidy trilogy, the second movie is probably always going to be my favorite Peter Parker movie, but it had just been dethroned by this new flick as my favorite Spider-Man movie: Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse.

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Jukebox Friday

Sunflower – Post Malone, Swae Lee

So it was the Golden Globes last Sunday, and “Spider-Man: Into The Spider-Verse” won best animation!! I have the movie review lined up for tomorrow, so let’s put a song here that I’ve been obsessing with the past week that was from the movie soundtrack. Let the cool vibe of the song accompany you towards the weekend and have a great one! I know I will. 😉

Oh if you have some great headphones, try out this version, it gets my morning started with swag. 😛

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