Welcome to the first Jukebox Friday of the new decade! 😀 There were many great songs that came out in 2019 so I want to list five of my favorites of the year.
1. Anxiety ft. Selena Gomez – Julia Michaels
It took me a long time to even realize that I get anxiety sometimes, but unlike the kind of anxiety that I’ve learned from the movies and such, I almost only get them when I’m by myself or alone with someone who triggers my anxiety. It feels like this giant hole of emptiness opening inside of me and threatens to swallow me whole and I would be trapped inside of it and I wouldn’t be able to snap out of it by myself and I would just scream and scream inside but no sounds come out. That’s why I like being around people, cos they calm me. That’s why I don’t like silence when I’m home alone. That’s why I’m a Youtube addict. And that’s also why I love this song.
Favorite parts of the lyrics:
“I try my best just to be social. I make all these plans with friends and hope they call and cancel. Then I overthink about the things I’m missing. Now I’m wishing I was with ’em.”
“Feel like I’m always apologizing for feeling. Like I’m out of my mind when I’m doing just fine.”
“Always wanted to be one of those people in the room that says something and everyone puts their hand up. Like, “If you’re sad put your hand up. If you hate someone, put your hand up. If you’re scared, put your hand up”
“I’ve been told that I could take something to fix it. Damn, I wish it, I wish it was that simple.”
“I got all these thoughts, running through my mind. All the damn time and I can’t seem to shut it off. I think I’m doing fine most of the time. I think that I’m alright, but I can’t seem to shut it off.”
2. Dancing with a Stranger – Sam Smith, Normani
I know it’s been years now from the break-up with my ex-Dom, but I guess it wasn’t until last year that I really started to process the whole thing and began the getting better part. So for the better part of the year, I was feeling this song.
3. bad guy – Billie Eilish
There isn’t a bigger story with this one, it’s just a really good song that makes me feel like a dangerous woman. 😀
4. Watermelon Sugar – Harry Styles
I’m really feeling the new Harry Styles and his music. 😀 And this is pure summer, the whole song. It warms my body and protects it against the winter chills. 😛
5. Prom Queen – Catie Turner
Last but definitely not least, my absolute favorite song of the year. The simplicity of the tune, the singing, all that emotions in Catie’s voice and oh the lyrics. So raw and kinda sad how much of the teen angst I can feel at the age of 35.
My favorite parts of the lyrics:
“I’m holding on but barely, plagued by teenage popularity. It’s a terrible feeling being the ghost on the wall that’s always disappearing.”
“Cause I wanna be somebody to someone but it all is starting to blur like a dream. Burn the sash and smash that tiara.
No that’s not me, I’ll never be prom queen.”
“It’s okay, it’s okay. I’ll convince myself it’s overrated anyway. It’s okay, it’s alright. The jealousy in my bones won’t rattle it right.”