Thus continues the theme of the month about self-improvement and self-love. And this week, it’s all about self-love. When I was planning this particular post, to my absolute delight I found out that I actually wrote a list of ‘Ten Things I Love About Myself‘ over two years ago. 😀 I guess I do love myself a lot. 😛 So here we go, ten more things I love about myself.
1. Honest
A lot of traits in my personality boils down to one sentence: I don’t give a fuck. As in I don’t give enough fucks to lie for whatever reasons. I’m the only child, I’m a master liar cos that was how I survived my childhood with Asian parents. But the older I get, the less I found myself caring enough to lie. It’s exhausting. So I’m just gonna be honest most of the time. I’m not tackless though. I don’t go out of my way to be mean and tell people things that would hurt them (even though it’s the truth), unless they ask me directly. I’m not that good at sugar-coating anything. But the one thing about honesty that I am proud of is that I strive to be honest to myself and with myself. It’s the hardest thing but I try my best. Cos in the end, that’s what matters the most.
2. Precise
Some might call it nip-picking but I am very precise in many things in life, I got my own ways of doing things. However, I don’t like to force my ways on others, so I mostly end up taking care of things by myself. A bit OCD, but that’s what living alone for a while can do to ya, you learn how you like things done.
3. Affectionate
It’s a constant work in progress. I don’t get stressed or anxious about many things but showing and asking for affection is one of the biggest of the reasons that cause me endless anxiety. I am a very affectionate person deep down, but it’s buried so deep that often I have a hard time to force it out. And make no mistake, it is forcing. Cos otherwise the affectionate part of me would stay buried and never see the light of day and I would get really sad. I wish I can be as affectionate with everyone as I really want to be deep down. I guess admitting to myself just how affectionate I am is the first step.
4. Caring
I do love taking care of others. I guess it is one of those good things I inherited from my Asian side. I like to feed people I like, I like to make sure they have all they need when they are in my care. I might not be the type that I ask you how you are doing all the time, I’m more like the type that you know would make you chicken soup if you are sick and you have no one else to take care of you. And you would know that all you need to do is ask and I’ll be there. Of course, that only applies to my friends and those I like.
5. ChangeableÂ
I do love my willingness to change myself. I don’t like seeing myself as a done project, I like to see myself as ever-evolving. Change can be scary sometimes but it is also very exciting. I love learning about myself and if I discover something that I’m not that fond of, then I won’t hesitate to try and change it. But more about this next week. 🙂
6. Accepting
On the other side of the scale, I am pretty accepting of those things that I can’t change. Namely other people. It’s not that I don’t believe that people can change, I know for a fact that it is possible, but I just don’t expect it. I don’t wait for it. And I never ever ask for it. Change can be a beautiful thing but it’s not a requirement. I never lay conditions on people I let close, like ‘you would be great if only you are this and that’. If I don’t like them as they are, then I don’t like them.
7. Organized
It is one of my defining characteristics. Well I am a secretary, can’t be a very good one if I’m not organized. I’ve also been getting better at actually sticking through my plans too.
8. Determined
Sometimes it takes a while for me to decide on something, but once that decision is made, you bet your ass I’m going to make it. No matter how long it would take me. So I guess it’s a good thing that I don’t make decisions lightly. Just like promises, I don’t promise anything unless I’m sure I’m going to do it.
9. Challengable
I love a good challenge and I do love to do that all the time. My favorite person to challenge is of couse myself! Just you wait, next year is going to be full of fun challenges!
10. Tenacious
Just like in one of my favorite Shawn Mendes song, giving up is not in my blood. I hate the feeling of not giving it my all before letting go. That’s usually the part I’m going to regret if I ever give up too early. I find it hard to forgive myself in a sense so I would try anything to avoid that feeling.
There they are. Ten more things I love about myself. Next week, I would list ten things I would like to improve about myself. 🙂 Hope you had a relaxing weekend!